give us this day our daily dose of faux affliction,
forgive our sins,
forged at the pulpit,
with forked tongues selling faux sermons,
cause I am a new winged gospel;
sharpened and you'll be thy witness,
so gentlemen if you're gonna preach,
for God's sake, preach with conviction;
I Constantly Thank God For Esteban by Panic! At The Disco

This song talks about people who don't actually mean what they say or anything they do. Preach with conviction is like educate with pride. Part of the lyrics are come congregation let's sing it like you mean it; no, don't you get it don't you get it now don't you move. The song is basically about doing something half-heartedly and it makes no difference if you were to do it and if you did not. Get what I mean ? The contradiction in this song can kill anyone. LOL; all belongs to Brendon Urie and Spencer Smith. Goodbye, Ryan Ross, this is not yours anymore.

STRIKE UP THE BAND ;
I just had my Malay exam and it was aight I guess. 3 more papers to go ! Can you see how much it can kill someone to actually wait for another week to sit for the other 3 papers ?! The only subject bothering me is Science. Psh;

STAY WHERE I CAN SEE YOU DOUSE THE LIGHTS;
I've been writing a lot lately. Proses. On blank paper. With a black pen. Pharken, I want to watch Jennifer's Body. SG; YOU ARE SO OUTDATED ! God, you don't even sell Hot Mess. How outdated is that ?! Psh; very.

P.S.  ugly + ugly = FUGGLY

And you're walking away,
And I will die in this place;
Sometimes you scrape and sink so low,
I'm shocked at what you're capable of,
And if this is a coronation,
I ain't feeling the love;
My Chemical Romance's Kill All Your Friends.

I love the "bababa"s in the song. It's so cute. Everone is so stressed out with the exams and my smaller hermano doesn't gives two piece of faeces. Mìamì is the one stressed out. Bloody pharken. I feel like slapping him a thousand million jillion times. I don't cause this type of problems with her. Education wise I can handle it, no problem, no sweat. At least it's one thing that she doesn't have to worry about me. Now that she knows of PA and all, I rather not cause problems and shit. One load taken off her mind.

I LOVE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE ;
JE AIME MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE;
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE AMO;
It's such a blissful thing when you watch your favourite band evolve into such brilliant role models. From the Bullets album to Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge, their attitiude towards their fans changed drastically. The very thought of having fans who love your music, who love your band, who regard you as role models, as life-savers even, can change anyone. It has certainly changed Bob Bryar the most. Moving on to The Black Parade, they share their stories on death and suicide and it's most irrelevancy in attempting to face both. Their beautiful lyrics capture the intensity of a thriller book, making the listener sit back and think.

Their evolution in their music is undescribable. I get attracted to them because of their personality, their attitiude towards making music to share, their capturative lyrics that gets the mind going, their feelings towards being a band, as one group of people who love music and wishes to share everything they have with everyone. I love the fact that every album tells a different story, displays a different array of feelings. I love the fact that each and every song matches with the next and you just can't play it at random to get the feel, the beat, of the album. You have, should, must listen to the songs in order.

The difference between people who "like" My Chemical Romance and idolise My Chemical Romance is how they feel about the band.Those who "like" them would only say so ater a certain song of My Chemical Romance is on the top songs in the world. Like for example, when Welcome To The Black Parade was aired on the radio, millions of people claim they "like" the band. At the very least, say that you like that certain song of the band, don't say you "like" them. It's stupid. If you do "like" them, do you even know the other songs that are not singles and are not music videos other than the song that was on the top list? Pharken, you don't.

At least I don't do such things. If there's a song from a band that is worth listening to, I'll get someone to buy the album off iTunes for me. I won't go around telling everyone to listen to one song off the album. I'll recommend the whole album because it is worth listening to. Jumping off bellwagons is not cool, is not a laughing matter, is not something anyone should do. Unless, of course, you're a bitch like that then maybe I would understand. Other than that, don't.

OH MY GAWD, I LOVE YOUR HAIR ;
Sorry for being all touchè and all but I really do love My Chemical Romance and I want to make it a fact that I hate those type of people who do the above. That's why I don't have My Chem or Panic! songs in my phone. Cos I'm selfish like that and I hate it when my songs get circulated. All I have in my phone are the albums, Folie À Deux by Fall Out Boy and Where Myth Fades To Legend from Alesana. And no, I'm not letting anyone transfer songs anymore. It's bloody stupid. Go buy the song you want off iTunes, idiots. Entertainers need their doe too. Stop downloading. Start buying idiots!

WE'RE NOT FALLING IN LOVE ;
No band tomorrow. Gon do my DnT. I'm keeping my art pieces, thank you very much. English has to be done tomorrow. I owe someone a hard copy of something which I have yet to do; HEE.

JAYKAY JAYKAY JAYKAY EL OH EL OH EL OH EL;
I scarily look like my sister.

-em are why ee; mrye.
P.S. DEANNA; you are so gon show me tomorrow.
P.P.S. KHAI; notice the bolded letters. LOL.

[random title much ? credits to Afiz Haikkal.]

Yes, I know this is the second post for the day but I'm bored and Afiz can't talk to me cos he has to go. And I have something to say anyway;

just in case you were wondering, "Immortality Meant Never Dying" is from the song Our Lady Of Sorrows by My Chemical Romance. That phrase alone is Gerard Way's favourite. I like that song. It's from the Bullets album, anyhus. Andtha guy is Gabe Saporta. there's more. *smiles wide wide*

 BLINKING HOT STUFFS !!

 one more picture and I swear I'll stop grinning like an idiot.

I think I have a thing for people who wear geel glasses or shades and have short curly hair. SMILE GABE !!

Nur Mariyah Suck-what-uhhh

Psh, no, you didn't.
Even if you did, ... NAH.

FAN FICTION IS THE PHARKEN ;
3 series of Gabe Makes Good Guys Go Bad is out. WHEE; I hate it when I read something and it turns out, the series is not complete and I'm gonna have to read the next one in another 3 to 4 weeks time minimum. Seriously, they need to update real quick. If not, it'll be such a down turn. URGH. It's aight, I guess. The waiting period is worth it after reading.

1, 2, BUCKLE MY SHOE ;
School was aight. Weds are always are slack day. I wrote a super cool poem. HEH, no, on second thought, I won't show it here if no one bothers to tag anymore. It'll be like talking/typing to myself. In which I am doing.

JEIDY WATCHES GOSSIP GIRL ! ;
How cool is that ?! Finally found someone that watches it and loves Nate too. Oh god, he's so hot. *screams* hush now, Gabe might hear. *grins wide wide* Diyanah watches Gossip Girl too and that is so pharken !! HEH, Gossip Girl rocks.

 yo no sé porqué usted incomodó el escuchar él.
For me to know, for you to find out.

And Gabe Saporta is the sex, I swear.

~Nur Mariyah ;

[I'll give you a sneak peek at what I wrote eh ?]
.......
Get it right, man, cos I'm staying here till you get it right,
Come closer and I can slowly show you the right light,
Hell yeah, I'm nice am I ? ; sleep tight baby, night,
I'm closing this very door and I'm gon lock it real tight,
You see, I only want to leave an indelible imprint on you;
I can't help it but you're just so special to me, boo,
You show everyone you're mighty while I adore you,
Haha, stop saying you're hip hop and that you can dance too;
......

Cool eh ? And no, unless you're worthy, I ain't gonna show you what I wrote. Even for this 2 verses, I changed the words so it won't seemed so vulgar. Psh; I love this. May transfer this to my MCR fulscap, may not. We'll see.

seriously. hahahahahahahhahaha. wait, i forgot to say/type. oh yeah; hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. enough ? no, but I'm still telling you what happened anyway.

BEFORE THAT;
RAINAL ! pharken, i miss you. Thanks so much(NOT!) for posting a post on my account. I told you to go make your own right ??! Psh, never mind. I hate you. Stupid Australia. Can't you stay ?? You're an idiot.

Thanks Rye ! I love you too, bro ! *does spastic face* HAH, tak leh cubit aku. quack.

BACK TO MY LAUGHING MATTER ;
god, it's blinking hilarious. And it (yeah, it is an it, geddit ? you should) doesn't even fucking know that they don't swear that much. Like, hello ? They're most probably one of the most innocent people on the face of the Earth that I know won't say a swear word. It comes once in a blue moon. Wait, what was I going to say/type again ? Oh yeah, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAFUCKHAHAHAHABLOODYHAHAHAHAHAHA. Laugh with me. It's HILARIOUS.

I'm still thinkin whether to tell Llyod about it or not. If I do, it will certainly break hearts and a number of laughing bones too. If I don't, I might as well take matters up in my own hands. It's not as if I can't right ? I'm trained super well by the amazing hot stuff (NOT!) who claims to be the sex (Psh;) Karim Rodparrophs (HAH, sorry, man. Idk how to spell your last name). Hell yeah.

And Llyod comes over to the west on certain days only. So, I gotta make a choice. It deserves it. Super real bad.

BACK TO GILER BABI NAK MAMPOS ;
currently, I'm chatting to Matin, my friend, via facebook. I hate MSN now. I get what the rest thinks of it right now. I can't believe I was so blind, man. MSN sucks. facebook is no better either. Oh, i have amazing birthday msgs from my friends via sms and call and facebook. Darn sweet, they all. Gotta love them. Hazwani and Afiz called to wish me. Afiz called me in the middle of the night when I was still sleeping. Crazy pharken. But he sounds okay, though. Keep it up, bro.

I received amazing presents too. In order of presents given to me earliest; Benj, Hazwani, Hui Fang, Li Ying, Diyanah, Deanna, Jie Ying, Karim, Wee Hao. I wouldnt say Karim's present was a present but it's still.. yeah. LOL; stupid. Still ;

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH !
the presents are deeply deeply appreciated.
&& for those who are thinking of giving anything to me, I appreciate it too.
It's the thought that matter, really. :D
i love you ;

Rye, even though you're gone, I'm pretty sure you're gonna be an indelible imprint on me. A permanent one. I will never ever forget you, don't you dare forget that. Or me, in any case. I'm grateful to God too. I love you. I know I sound corny right now but I do. Don't fret. The world is small. One day, we'll meet again and talk over coffee aight ? We'll talk about every single bit of our lives to each other before the day ends. I know your father has been a pain in the arse to you but you just gotta control it. You can do it. I know although it's been a long time since the incident happened, you won't forgive him. I understand that. I have no right to tell you to be like some father son pair or anything. But through it all, he has tried to help you in any way possible. Whoops, out of tangent now are we ? Well, thanks Rye for being there, here, everywhere. For telling me that every single drop of fate has its own purpose for landing itself on Earth. Now that you solved your problems, let me solve mine. I'm still trying my best. I just hope, one day, some day, she'll notice me again like before. Pray for me, Rye. I'll be praying for you too. I love you.

-Nur Mariyah

[hey, it's Rye here. Miss me?

Happy birthday to Nur Mariyah. I am so truthfully sorry I couldn't be there with you today to at least give you a wish or a radiant smile to brighten up your day but I'm here now and I want to know how proud I am of being your friend.

You're 14 now, god-damn-it. How time flies by eh hermana? 2 years of knowing you is just enough to make my life turn right round. You taught me a lot of things. You taught me how to stop listening to others and listen to my heart instead. You taught me how to fly when my wings have been tattered so badly ever since that day. You taught me how to get over things that happened no matter how quickly it did and move on. You taught me life, Mariyah. I can never forget that.

I love you, yes I really do and I am ever so grateful to God for the fate that brought you in my life. Fuck it real bad that I can't be there with you and the rest. I love you because I need you. To be beside me and support me whenever, wherever, whatever. Times are getting harder now what with the stupid custody shits but I'm trying to move forward. I never want to look back again. No matter how much I want to.

Happy 14th birthday, hermana.

Don't fret. Even though I'm gone now, it doesn't mean you don't have anyone else to confide in. You taught me that too remember? Now it's your turn.

My friend, mì amigo, my sister, mì hermana.

I wish you a happy birthday. May all your dreams come true.
Don't you dare wish for me to come back cos I won't. I'm sorry.
But I love you.

Send My Love To The Dancefloor and I'll See You Someday (Hey Miss Nur Mariyah)

Goodbye,
Rainal. rye. academia navaja.

P.S. Fizzie, if you're reading this, I love you too. I'm praying for you, don't you worry. Keep smiling, mì hermano.
P.P.S. Karim, te amo tanto. Visit me soon o.k.?

No one ever punched straight to your face,
No one ever stabbed you in the back,
You might think I'm happy,
But I'm not gonna be okay,
Everybody always gave you what you wanted,
You never had to work and it's always there,
No, you don't know what it's like
Simple Plan's Welcome To My Life

Fucking bitch; you reckon you don't know how important that thing is. Don't tell me bullshit and say that it's not important and it's too much. Bitch, it is important. It's fucking schoolwork. It's fucking important. Right now, my grades for that subject is slipping and I thought I could at least get an A for this project but fuck no, you just had to delete my stuffs. MY FUCKING STUFFS.

BLOODY BITCH, can't you at least listen to what I'm saying. You have no fucking respect even though I'm way older than you. You act as if you're cool and guess what? BITCH, I JUST FEEL LIKE STRANGGLING YOUR BLOODY NECK. I don't get why some people actually entertain your motherfucking stories which are so obviously NOT TRUE. You blinking attention seeker, I hate you.

You wonder why you get bullied in school? You wonder why I don't do anything about it when I can actually do that within a snap of my fingers? That's cos someone has to teach you, tell you more like that you are a fucking motherfucker and they all hate you. Don't you get it? You don't have friends, motherfucker. They claim that they are. They are only around you cos you are just too nice that you gave your entire pocket money to them. How deperate can you get, bitch? Oh, maybe that's why tey steal your wallet too. You never found it right?

Bitch, I just wished you could get out of my life. But HOHO, hell no. That's only possible if you were dead. I wish you are. Drop dead now, bitch. I fucking hate you. Fuck you, fuck you.

Go die, bitch. I'm way better off without you.

If you were to not exist, everyone would look up to me. Everyone would at least support me. But you exist. ____ and ____ never came to any of my concerts on time. They never got to see my concerts cos they were always late what with prayers and all. Your events are all at night but they still went. Be grateful that you are actually getting praise. Me? That only happens when I get a good mark for tests and all. Even so, sometimes, I have to ask of their opinions on my marks, they always forget.

I want attention from them too, you know. Why do you always have to take them away from me?

Tomorrow is my birthday. All I would get is a simple wish. Sometimes, ____ hug and kiss me. That's all I ask for. You? Toys and toys and toys; you ASKED FROM THEM. And you always get it. Always. Fuck, always.

Yes, I am jealous of you. I'm jealous that you get attention. I'm jealous that they actually pay attention to every single bit of your life. I'm jealous that they care about how school when for you. I'm jealous that they wanted to know every single bit of detail that happened everyday at school. I'm jealous that they actually care about your fake stories and listen to you; everytime I do that, they would always say that they are busy and for me to go mind my own business. I am jealous. Fuck yes, I actually am.

I hate you.

My only goal in life is to make them happy. Make them proud of my achievements. Make them say "Oh, this is my sucessful ____." Make them beam at me when I graduate. You get a simple achievement and you get something out of it; KFC or whatever. It's unfair. Yes, I am jealous of you. Hell fuck yes, I am.

I hate you.

Why do I get a different treatment from them compared to you? I wanna be praised too. I wanna get attention from them too. I want them to be proud of me. They are proud of you, they already said so, both of them. What about me?

I hate you.

I really do.

HAHA, THE GUYS FROM SCARE TACTICS WHO WAS A VICTIM LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE RYE ! MY GAWD MY GAWD ; pharken. Sadly, the piercings are gone and the fringe looks as if there is no fringe. Psh, Rye is nuts to have cut it.

LOL, credits go to Ezzul. he wanted phark. Pharken sounds way nicer lah.

happy birthday to youuu,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Andreewwwww,
happy birthday to youuuuu;

(: Andrew, a brilliant baritone saxophonists and my friend who will always lend me his PSP (NOT). Still, you rock. HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY !

happy birthday to youu,
happy birthday to youuuu,
happy birthday to Li Ying,
happy birthday to youuuuu;

(: Li Ying, my super HOMECONS partner, we rock at it yeah ?

Toi creo. Ademas, te amo, mi hermano y novio.

Spanish is so weird, i swear. It's like Arab, but easier. I always sucked at Arab. A near pass. French is easier. Spanish and French is like contradictory languages. Cool eh ? Hazwani's learning French. I'm learning Spanish. Spanish is da sex. the farken to the max.

The All-American Rejects's album Move Along is okay, I guess. The lyrics are amateur and capturing. I especially Can't Take It. My favourite so far. The beginning is cool. My all-time favourite song from the band It Ends Tonight is in the album. Which is cool, I guess. It's a must to listen to those who like Simple Plan. It's pretty similar except that the lyrics are more impactful, if possible. Dirty Little Secret, their single is a total hit. You should go watch the music video.
The All-American Rejects's album Move Along.

Holidays are coming to an end. More importantly, I'm going to get older soon. Carajo! farken.

Aight, toodles;
gimme a ring or tag. It's super appreciated.

Nur Mariyah Saporta
P.S. I'm obsessed over New Perspective but no, I havent got the lyrics right. farken eh ?
P.P.S. Rye; MANER HOT MESS AKU, BADIGOL !!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to youu,
happy birthday to Melissaaaaaaa;
happy bithday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

(: MELISSA TURNS 15 TODAY; phwoarvalue senior she is. ROCK ON ;

it changes everything I see,
But if I continue watching,
I'd lose the triats that worry me,
New Perspective by Panic! At The Disco

I love that song. The lyrics are SO Panic! ; not Ryan Ross-ish ish. Sounds so nice to the ear. LOL, cos there's drums. I have a feeling Ryan is against drums or something. Pretty.Odd. doesnt seemed to have a strong bass compared to A Fever You Can't Sweat Out. BOO, i want my drums.

I just gave a question on ALLOY.COM to Panic!. Just literal kinda thing.