One, two, three; a tragedy that builds on destiny. Like death itself.

I couldn't take the sharp and piercing cry from her as I grabbed my phone and book and went out the door. It was irritating having to deal with her childish and stupid ways. What with her attention seeking mouth that seems to get me ito trouble for everything I did not do. I couldn't take it anymore.

I left.

I won't let you kiss me. Kill me.

He was there. I just walked on. I pushed the door open and sat on the red velvet couch. I curled myself into a ball cried to myself. Everything is falling down. It feels like hell but I know that I'm still well alive. What did I do wrong ? A reassuring hand hugged me closer to a warm body. I let him. He tells me everything happens for a reason then he lets me cry. He does not say everything is going to be okay.

Your kiss is torture but killing me would be too easy.

That's because everything is not going to be okay. I can't face all this on my own. I need him. I need answers to my never-ending questions. He lets me cry. He lets me let it all out. I don't want to know that everything is going to be okay. That's because everything is not going to be okay.

If I could do it all again, I would change most everything single thing.

Lyrics from Mest's Kiss Me, Kill Me.

toodles ;

mrye; nur mariyah.

http://missxscissorhands.deviantart.com
She's a brilliant slash writer. Especially for My Chemical Romance. Read Boys of Seclusion. It's wonderfully wonderful.

I'm terribly sorry for not posting proper; I'm just too lazy to retype everything I typed before. These ads are getting irritating by the minute. I'm proud to say that ENVA has survived 2 weeks without the need of charging. Hip hip hoozah.

I bought a book that has a hundredand thirty pages of beautiful lines on them. I've currently wrote 2 stories, on my way to 3. Gon let Karim see it. *smiles wide wide* Big thanks to Diyanah and Farhanah. I hate writing like this. It's so empty and.. empty.

Have you ever had the feeling of getting so used to someone's presence so much, you feel as if everything is crashing down when they're gone ? It's a real bizarre feeling. You would feel like giving in to everything that would make you and that someone the last people on Earth. You just feel so overwhelmed and protected and safe and you don't care what anyone thinks. You rely on that someone, you trust them. And when they're gone, you realise that it is not the end. You got so used to their presence, you learnt from them. You imagine them with you. You can feel that they are so close to you, you don't need to see, hear, touch, feel, hold them to get the security you had when they were physically and literally beside you. They'll always be there. No matter what.

Awaiting Tuesday to come. Hurry time, hurry.

mrye; nur mariyah
P.S. tomorrow is the release date for the results. God knows where I'm going and God has a good reason why. God knows us all the best, next to our mothers.
P.P.S. ai meez raaiy end pannive ercareduhmee so farkeenc march.

Ayah: Where's Mama ?
Mama: Miao.

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHHAAH
randomness runs in the genes.
blinking shiz, this is nuts.

FACEBOOK
Diyanah: Mariyalisasikan
Mariyah: MARIYAHlisasikan. Where's the H ?!?!?!?!
Diyanah: I ate the H. It was the letter of the day.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAA

PHONE
Afiz: Guess who's back, back again.. Rindu bodoh!
Mariyah: Siao, where's Rye ?
Afiz: .....eh shit, I think I left him at the airport.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

aights, bye.

just thought you guys might wanna have a laugh before sleeping.

BOOMZxcxxzzxcxzxzcxzxczzz

mrye; mariyahlisasikan

There all compete for your love,
But I don't need to screw with that,
If you don't believe it's your loss, your loss,
.....
If you don't like what I say,
Put it in your blog,
I promise no one even gives a damn
Cobra Starships's I May Be Rude But I'm The Truth

I had a dream beech was thrown out of the window by Lloyd. Wonder when that'll happen.

'CAUSE I GOT MY OWN MONEY;
Rehearsals were bullshit. Wasted my motherfucking time. Will not talk about it or I'll just rant in some vulgar fuck blog post and you guys will complain to your mommies that I'm a bad girl who swears. HAH; carajo perra.

WE GO SHA NA NA NA NA NA ;
Went lunch with K, D and D at SC. D still doesn't have her rubix cube. Went back home, didn't have anything to wrote so I slept. Then dreamt of the window fantasy.

I'VE EATEN OFF THE FLOOR BEFORE ;
blogdrive can be such a biatch sometimes. Everything just disappeared. All the better. I think God has a reason for all of this, he doesn't want me to post about such stuffs. I'm sorry. You know best for me so I'll just accept it. I love God.

Gabe Saporta is like sex on toast. The smexiest Mexican, seriously. I can just drool over him while watching The Church Of Hot Addiction live where he rides up his shirt. FUCKING HOT. D'accord, too much. And Ryland's voice is the sex. FUCK.

toodles, you no-good people who read this dead blog.

fucking tag it will you ?

Bet you no one will, now. *smiles wide wide*

mrye; suck-what-uh saporta
P.S. Notice the emphasism on Gabe's hotness.
P.P.S. hot lah sial. fucking hot, cheebye, can eat him up. Sex on toast.

Another cigarette and I'm so bored;
Your words aren't making sense,
I was taken, but you were waitin',
One more drink and I'm convinced
Control by Metro Station

Yes, I do listen to Metro Station but only sometimes when I'm in desperate need to think about something else, in which I am. Metro Station is a band that talks about sex and sex, nothing else. Don't get carried away with ther music videos that does not make any sense to the lyrics of the song. It's ALL about sex. At least, their self-titled album is. Every single track of sex.

WE'RE TAKING CONTROL OF THE NIGHT ;
Health Carnival was a motherfucking waste of my fucking precious and most wanted blinking time. I wasn't with anyone most of the time. Surya kept disappearing to I don't know where. Elson, most of the time, doesn't take note of my plea for something to fucking do during the motherfucking Health Carnival fuck. In the end, I got Kwok Ying to be my friend for the day and we went walking around the school. He said something that really made sense, but I hate to admit it. So I left him and slacked at the motherfucking EE shit room. I hate swearing at every fucking sentence but fuck the Health Carnival. It sucked shit.

I'M COMING DOWN, BRING ME UP ;
What Kwok Ying said really struck me, seriously. I won't say I'm close to him but really, that question/statement was ... something.

IF YOU TAKE ME, I'LL TAKE WHAT YOU WILL GIVE ;
I miss them. I miss you. I miss her. I miss him. I miss my bisexual. Monday is very very long. I want my bisexual. *boos* Fuck it real hard.

Note to self: do not bring Mama to watch any horror movies with her beside me; I'll be embarassed shit.

au revoir mi amigos y hermanos, hermanas y novio.
te amo tanto.

mrye; smith walker stump.
P.S. I have a very bad addiction that I desperately need to get over or else I'll get disinherited.
P.P.S. Okay, no, not funny. Sorry, bisexual.
P.P.P.S. Now we're even.

http://myspace.com/pomplamoosemusic
these musicians rock the shit out of me.
blnking talented. They have voice, bass, rhythm, tempo, everything.
Did I mention that they have bass ?! OH THE PHARKEN KINGS;

http://mychemicalromance.com
I swear Mikey Way couldn't look any hotter. If he can, I'll most probably just kill Alicia Simmons and suck her blood out. Looking forward to the interview at Fuse. I LOVE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE.

http://cobrastarship.com
Updated and it's funny and the pharken too. Ryland couldn't have looked any better and sound any cuter/hotter, whichever you like. Wet Hot Amerian Summer is brilliant. FANGS UP ;

DEFINITIONS AND CONTRADICTION ;
I promised myself I will not post anything about exams or shit like that. Band is not shit, btw. But I have to say that I am proud of myself for actually studying. Passing can be achieved with a snap of a finger. More than passing goes a long way. And I thank my friends, especially Karim, Rohini and Hazwani, for helping me with never-ending questions and getting me to think slightly ahead; which can be tedious due to my very short-mindedness, if there is such a word. But most of all, I thank God for letting it happen. Amen.

FER SURE MAYBE, FER SURE NOT;
gatherings, meetings, outings. Being with your friends is magic, Be it for a movie, a picnic or just a walk, you can fill up those empty holes of doubt and the want to know so so fast. You learn things that you didn't know, maybe didn't even bother at that time but you just grow to learn a little bit, listen a little bit and there, brilliant.

I'm done here.

I love you all.

mrye; valkyrie

Fiz: Eyh, want do home video ? We go Karim's crib and stash his tronics.
MRYe: Eh eh, we do Church of Hot Addiction uh. I WANNA BE GABE !! period.
Rye: Fine, I want Ryland.
Fiz: CB, I want Ryland.
Rye: fucking shit, no.
Fiz: bloody hell, yes.
Rye: bitchhole, no.
Fiz: blinking fuck, yes.
Rye: motherfucker, no. I WIN !!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA;

Just let me ask you hey;
Have you heard of my religion,
It's called the church of hot addiction,
And we believe, that God has lust,
For everything;
The Church Of Hot Addiction by Cobra Starship

2 papers down, 2 more to go. Oh, I literally wrote about the incident in the book, The Lost Boy, where Dave gets into trouble for arson. My composition rocks but I won't say that it is the best that I've ever written.

G-A-B-E GON GET YOU HIGH;
Needless to say, I did not get to become Gabe as I needed to go home to study. Tomorrow is Mathematics. I'm anxious for Science and I really hope the paper won't be too tough. I hate Science. To date, I completed my revision on Semester 1 topics, effects of heat, all that needs to be known for electricity and sexual reproduction. 2 more topics to go. Motivation is efficient.

MY LIGHT IS ELECTRIC;
I'm afraid I have to be going. My conscience tells me I only have 19 hours till my next paper. Fuck, I'm fucking scared.

Mi head esta spinning. Science esta un perra. Carajo, Science.

mrye; blackington.
P.S. I did a Ryland Blackington pose. It's in my phone. Will post as soon as hell freezes over.
P.P.S. Kidding, after the exams.

Interviewer: so why don't we start with the thing at the top of the heat; the spilt. What's the real story ? What facillitated this ? What's the cause ?
Brendon: Well, it started with a wrestling match and it ended in a bloodbath.
Spencer: *laughs*
interviewer: Well, since you're here, you obviously won.
Brendon: Yeah, I survived.

my gawd, Spencer is so gorgey. *screams* And he is so like Mikey Way in radio interviews; he adjusts his seat and microphone and does random faces. Funny shit. And he gave a cute death glare. I don't know how a death glare can actually be cute in the first place; contradictory kills people. Hell yeah, gotta love Panic! .

I feel the salty waves come in,
I feel them crash against my skin,
But I smile as I aspire because,
I know they'll never win;
There's a haze above my TV,
It changes everything I see;
Panic! At The Disco's New Perspective, which is the single of Jennifer's Body Sountrack.

I love this song. It's so Panic! esque and not Ryan Ross-ish. Psh;

STOP THERE AND LET ME CORRECT IT;
I realised that Panic! has been updating on their myspace and not their blog. LOL; it's a lucky thing I realised that early cos they have had 3 pharken interviews, with one where Brendon sang New Perspective acoustic. I cried listening to it. It's really beautiful. No one beats Brendon in Alternative singing, I swear. Not even Patrick Stump.

TAKING EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED;
Exaggeration on the second record being SLIGHTLY different from the first is needed. It is VERY different. From Pop/Rock/Dance/Alternative to Blues/Alternative. How SLIGHTLY different is that ? Ryan Ross is an ass. You may be the lyricist, but you are not the band. And the exclamation mark is something no one should, would, could grow out of. What the fuck is wrong with you ?

OTHER PLANS, THEY'RE THROUGH;
I can type My Chemical Romance without looking at the keyboard. !!! Anyhus, there's pictures of My Chem ! Finally. Bob looks so unkempt. Ray is hot, as usual. All I could see of Frank are his Halloween tattoos on his fingers. His birthday is coming, the 31st. Halloween baby. Mikey is so hot, he looks like some guy from the past, he's practically copying Hazwani in volumizing his hair, which is so hot. LOL; Gerard looks heavenly, so peaceful ish. LOL; hyperventilating; Mikey Way is darn smexy.

CAN WE FAST FORWARD TO GO DOWN ON ME ;
Holy shit, Frank E. did a remix of Good Girls Go Bad featuring Flo Rida. How sweet is that ?! Flo Rida of all people. The remix is cool, I guess. Scratch that, I LOVE IT. RYE; BUY FOR ME THE TRACK ! Please and thank you. saaaaaayang kau. LOL;

A LIFE THAT IS COMPREHENSIVE;
I saw Danial and Hasrul while I went to buy Aneeqa's VIX cos she's sick, poor thing. LOL; damn random. I see Danial almost everyday then it was only then did he said HI to me. I'll be seeing him later too, gotta take my little brother from school. Hasrul looks the same. LOL; acne and all.

exams are coming up. 3 papers. Hopefully, I can go Triple Science. I have a slight chance I might. LOL; slight.
I'm in love with Move Like You Gonna Die and Chew Me Up & Spit Me Out, both my Cobra Starship. THANKS RYE ! *smiles wide wide* Toxic Valentine by All Time low is so addictive too.

tellyhus, holler if you need anything.
holler if you don't too.
my tagboard is motherfucking empty.

mrye; suck-what-uh.
P.S. Turn on number 1: Guys with fair skin, curly hair, geek glasses, fringe, dimples and a lot a lot a lot of peircings. [Rye not included, LOL; loser]
P.P.S. Turn off number 1: Guys with hitam melegam face, rebonded hair, yellow hair highlights and has a lot a lot a lot of bangles/wristbands.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE's DESOLATION ROW HAS BEEN NOMINATED FOR THE SONG OF YEAR IN THE 2009 SCREAM AWARDS;
Linkin Park's New Divide an Paramore's Decode too.
IT'S A CLEAR WINNER PLUS CHOP; blinking pharken, MCR OWN ! *whoops like gilerbabs* *sings Hollaback Boy*
aights, back to business.

I see the sweat is dripping,
That's because you know just what I'm thinking,
Don't look back, it's me who follows,
...
You like to hide behind lies,
But we see through your diguise;
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus's You Better Pray

Pharken, 5 more days to Lang Arts paper. 6 more to holy Mathematics. 7 more to therapeutic(NOT) Science. I hate Science. We actually have to give two pieces of shit into it. Why can't I be excused from school due to government protection as well ? Huh, Afiz ? Why ? Carajo, mi amigo. Los unfairness est un pharken.

BOY, YOU BETTER PRAY;
HAHA, some smexy voiced guy called and said I was chosen to have a free photoshoot or some shit like that and I was like, okay, alright, uhuh, but I think I'm like underaged for this stuffs, seriously, havea good day. Then I hung up. The guy's voice was smexy shit but I think he was having a sore throat or something. Psh; cheating in smexyness is not allowed. Unless you're Gerard Way or Brendon Urie or Gabe Saporta, of course.

YOU THINK THE WAR IS OVER;
I hate people who owns a blog but writes like a 3 year old. 3 year olds can't write, and that's exactly my point. Please, if your English is as bad as my little brother, do not attempt at writing a blog. Forgive my lack of sensitivity but really, simple grammar mistakes and tenses turn people OFF while looking at your blog. Especially if there are loads of spelling mistakes. That, I think, is the worst. And glitter text is sooo '05.

NOT A THREAT OR A CURSE;
Jennifer's Body Soundtrack is long out and I feel that it i worth listening to. Tracks like Toxic Valentine by All Time Low and Chew Me Up and Spit Me Out by Cobra Starship takes on the movie's storyline really well. Nonetheless, there are tracks which don't fit it that well in the soundtrack like Teenagers sung by Hayley Williams of Paramore. Melodramatic mood and unsatisfying beats of suspense did not turn out that well, eh ? I admit I have a loathing towards Paramore, yes, but I do also admit that some of their songs are worth giving a ear to but this song is perfectly empty. And what happened to the rest of Paramore ? Or is it just Hayley Williams now ?

I'M GONNA MAKE YOU LET GO;
I have a sudden want of jumping on somebody's back. HAH; I think screamo is officially my favourite genre. Viva la Screamo. My Chemical Romance est mi favourite band. Aunque, te amo Cobra Starship too.

Go watch The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars cos I told you to.
I am finished with you you you,
Look at my eyes,
You're killing me, killing me,
All I wanted was you,
The Kill by 30 Seconds To Mars.
bolded marks screamo;

Screamo shit. Dance Rock pharken. Rock the pharken.

mrye; saporta iero smith
P.S. I didn't talk for my oral at all; I'm a goner.
P.P.S. No one tags at all; might as well not enable the tagboard.
P.P.P.S. Peterick is hot; seriously. I love Gabilliam too. Hell, Waycest&Frerard; *melts*

uhuh, holy shit,
It's about time you get off my ____,
A few times, you've been around that track,
But your ass if still fat;
It's gonna stay like that,
Cos I ain't your hollaback boy,
Cobra Starship's cover of Hollaback Boy, originated from Gwen Stefani.

Did you know that Cobra almost got sued by Stefani because they covered this song ? I don't know the whole story, nor do I want to either. LOL; blinking pharken.

NOW PEOPLE KNOW WHAT'S UP;
I was just watching an interview of Cobra Starship during Warped Tour. LOL; the interviewer obviously didn't know what to expect out of them; Ryland, Gabe and Alex. They were randomly shouting out of the range of the camera and all that. Blinking hilarious. And Ryland faked a heart attack. LOLMAO; gotta love CS; FANGS UP !

WHEN YOUR SECRET'S OUT;
Hell no. Hell no. Hell no. Pharken; :
mikey: Little known fact; about 12 years ago, mat devine offered me a try-out to be in Kill Hannah. I was 17 and living at my parents house.

5 days ago
NO WAY ! *speechless*

Kill Hannah is this awesome dance rock/alternative/screamo band that seemed to have the phrase "We die young" in every one of their song. But they rock, really. If Mikey Way were to join them and not be in My Chem, I shudder to think who would replace him as bassist. And if he did join Kill Hannah, he wouldn't have met Pete Wentz and developed the cute little "bond" and would never have met Alicia Simmons and married her and became the cutest couple ever. Oh My God;

SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS;
Bob Bryar is an ass, he posted a link to a youtube video where a German guy swallows a microphone. Blinking ass, it's super funny and gross at the same time. *shudders*

Aights then, off to fissy.
Oh, I gave Ifah's and Deanna's prezzie already so now I'm free of debt of any birthday present until November. HEE; and Afiz? I told Ipahpah that you wrapped the prezzie. HAH; bulldog. *smiles wide wide*

mrye; blackington
P.S. Notice the bolded words are part of the lyrics from the song above ??