My mouth curved into a serene smile,
Your lips are bit and you shrug,
My smile drops,
I wait patiently;
Your lips are moving so fast,
They don't make sense at all,
My breath stops,
I feel nauceous;
Your hand reaches out,
I pushed it away,
"Please understand",
I nod.
-mrye

Was trying to picture Patrick's feelings when Shane had to leave. Aw, so sad. Seriously. Patrick and Shane are so cute, so cute, so cute. So sad.

These past few days flew by super fast I still don't believed it happened at all. But I know jolly well it did.

Have to go now. Awaiting Monday. 2 MORE DAYS MI HERMANO! 17 OI!

FIZZHEEEEEEEEE = DA SHIZ

god, being at home really sucks sht. Still, my Forever21 stuffs are finally here. Hoorah hooray!!

mrye; valkyrie urie way.

I'm fasting again. Minimal swearing on this post.

R: Hello? Why are you calling me? I'm still at AUS.
M: OMG, sorry. Wrong person. HAHA.
R: Okay, it's aight. Nanti bill melambung. Miss You. Bye.
M says bye but R already hung up.

PHWOARVALUE, best 7 seconds of the year. Wanted to call my dad but I called him instead. HAHA, loves loves.

151209, the day before yesterday.
Diyanah, Deanna, Khairina and I went shopping at 313 and Suntec City Mall. I don't know. Wanted to buy tops at Forever 21 but none of them caught my eye. I think online shopping is better. Gon get my turqouise hoodie by the end of the month. Physched! Bought choker for Khai and Khai bought choker for me, birthday presents for each of us. *smiles* And a bracelet at Rubi which was at 50% discount. 5 bucks. CHEAP OR WHAT?! Black, go figures. *smiles* And a top at Cotton On that says Rocking Out is what I do. Love at first sight, and that was the only one. Met Danish and Aqilah at the bus stop at Lakeside MRT and we talked, catch up on each other, exchanged numbers. Danish is my junior and Aqilah is my senior. 3,2,1. 1,2,3. LOL.
Had LOADS of fun with D, D and K. I miss them already.

161209, yesterday.
Baking with Diyanah and Marion. Thanks to both of them, I'm addicted to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance. Thanks a lot eh! *smiles* Baked yummy cupcakes with ICING. Yummeh hot pink messy icing. Got to know M more and built memories with both of them.
You see, you have to treasure every single moment you have rght now, even this very second. You may never know when God will take your life away. It may be tomorrow, in another hour, in another minute, or even the next second. You don't know.

171209, today.
Helped wrap the books in plastic and had to stop halfway to meet Brandon, Ezzul's friend, to get mine and Diyanah's tickets for the Yuhua concert which I promised myself to go to support Danish and Aqilah. *smiles* and $%^&*&^%$% if he's there. *smiles* No, I don't hate that person. I still think he's a bit scary and erm, that; forget it. Discussed with E about our band and stuffs. I still think I'm right about our band and their band, though. We're buen. They're muy buen. It's a blinking large difference.
Going to go out with Mom and that La Puta to buy my bag and running shoes at 399. I don't know when, really. By today, if possible. I have yet to pay my phone bill.

You noticed the smiles? Yes, I'm really happy.

Friday is the day where I'll hear you again, to know that you are still alive.

Please.

mrye; cobracam.tv is love, viva la cobra.
P.S. Go watch cobracam.tv at http://cobracam.tv . Hilarious sht.
P.P.S. Victoria looks so much better with long hair.

EMO BOYS = LOVE
Call me nuts,
Call me crazy,
I really don't give two shts.

*hyperventilates* I feel like eating up emo people today.
Aw, shucks. I'm fasting. *frowns* *cries*

Here are the drawings. Hope you don't kill me for making you wait for something horrible:

Do zoom in and read. Most of which are lyrics which all of you should know.

The E is messed up and my sister said the O is ugly. I don't know. Comments.

I'm not done with this one. I totally dig the star. Whoo; & I din erase any part of the star whatsoever. I love stars. Love love love.

Comments. On the right. Call me if you're bored, though. Cos I'll be more bored. Wanna bet?

mrye; emo emo emo emo emo emo goodness.
P.S. *screams*

HUSBAND=MI CLARINETTE
don't get the wrong ideas, mi amigos.

Nice legs, daisy dukes,
Make a man go *whistle*,
That's the way they all come through,
Like *whistle* *whistle*,
Low-cut, see-through,
Shirts that make you *whistle*,
That's the way she come through,
Like *whistle* *whistle*
3OH!3's Starstrukk

HAHA, oh god. this song is hilarious sht. Maybe gon do a choreo, I don't know. I need more dance lessons from Le Pro/Afiz/La Puta. HAHAHAHAHA; shush.

CAUSE I JUST SET THEM UP;
Yes, people! I have been drawing. You caught me red-handed. While I'm typing this, I'm holding my drawings by my mouth, getting ready to use the scanner in the next room. *beep that can be heard when people lose on game shows* MARIYAH'S A LIAR, HER DRAWINGS ARE STILL IN THE DRAWER. No matter, will scan later.

OUT OF CONTROL;
I keep procrastinating, don't I? Tsk tsk, a very bad habit.

L-O-V-E'S JUST ANOTHER WORD;
mrye.
mryah.
mryeah.
em are why ee.
what comes next?

I'LL NEVER LEARN TO PRONOUNCE;
I'm fasting so you can notice the lack of talk/words on this post. I can't swear. Not even in Espanol. I owe God 5 days. Hopefully, there'll be 4 more days to go. Tomorrow, i'm going shopping with mi amigas. Weds, cookies, I don't know. Thurs, at K's, chillin', gon try to get help to make the posters and flyers. Friday, happy day.

FRIDAY IS A HAPPY HAPPY DAY!

Love you loads, and you know it. Oh, mryeah is a definite no no, E. Uglyeah.

mrye; these teens heart beating faster faster
P.S. more wit, better kiss, hotter touch, better shh.

Lyrics from Panic! At The Disco's Lying Is the Most Fun Thing A Girl Can Get Without Taking Her Clothes Off.

Good afternoon kings and queens,

I helped baked Sherperd's Pie and 3 pizzas today. 'Twas yummy, by the way. I bought 3 Kinder Joy and shared the chocolates with my elder sister and little brother. Wanted to give the third one to my elder brother but she wanted it. Anyhus, he's off to work. Will buy for him one day, though.

I finished knitting this pharking cool headband. It's white and suhweet. Ain't got no one to tell me how to wear it cos I knit it. Capish?

I'm in love with 3OH!3's Starstrukk. It's blinking marvelous. Go listen to it. Oh, I suggest you to hear the original version of it, the one without Katy Perry's vocals in it. It's nice too. The one featuring her is equally awesome.

Been keeping myself occupied with drawing. It's more like a creativity and feeling outburst. Like when you have too many emotions going on at what time, you would try your best to keep it in. You shouldn't though. Let it out. Write a poem. Compose a song. Pen down a prose. Draw an image. Tell a friend. Anything but keep it in.

Will scan what I drew one day. It's damn nice. *smiles*

Thanks for the brilliant day yesterday. Muchos gracias, mi hombre. *loves* HAHA.

Have a brilliant day people!

mrye; with more than good hooks while you're under the gun.
P.S. Hazwani is serious phwoarvalue. *loves*
P.P.S. Shopping on tues, anyone?

I'll be your sunshine,
You can be mine,
You be my windchime,
I got the rhyme,
We'll have a good time,
Make up your mind.
Sean Paul's So Fine.

I'm in total love with Tokio Hotel's lead singer cos he looks like you.
I'm super bored; I'm actually listening to Electronica, no offence.
I wrote a poem:

Note to self,
I miss you terribly,
This is what we call a tragedy,
Come back to me,
To me,
Note to self,
Without you now I see,
You went away and took a part of me,
Give it back to me,
To me,
Note to self,
I'm losing everything,
That part of me contained my sanity,
Please let it be,
Oh, please,
Note to self,
Now I feel incomplete,
Why can't you just come back to me,
I need you now,
Right now,
Note to self,
I miss you terribly,
You took my heart but didn't come back to me,
I'm not complete,
Without you.
-mrye

I'm bored with absolutely nothing to do. 1 month of waiting hurts. Tomorrow.

When he left, he took a piece of me with him. That piece was more like half my heart. I feel complete when I am around him. Now he's gone and he has half my heart with him. These descriptions do not really describe how I am feeling; they are just trying. I wish I could just see him again, to see him smile, to hear him laugh at nothing, to trace his lips, to hug him so tightly that my other half will come out of him. I just need to see him, to just know that he is still alive.
mrye;

My latest composition: Denial. Check out the whole story if you want to; ask me, it's in my book.

Corniness kills. Seriously. Tomorrow, tomorrow. I love you, tomorrow.

mrye; penknife academy
P.S. Your automatic eyes. 5 years disappear. 5 years disappear that night.

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Edeline and Ezzul,
happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

To the pro-est clarinetists I have ever known. Thou shalt not be forgotten.
Feel free to kill me if I do though. But I doubt it.

To Edeline;
Without you, I wouldn't have joined band. Thank you so much for pulling me into the long hours of sitting-on-the-edge-of-the-chair-if-not-we-would-get-poked-by-Mrs-Hwee's-sticks. Thank you for the happy memories we shared when doing squats and running around the hall because we did not teach the juniors properly. Thank you for the crazy times we had during lunch breaks on holidays and the multiple playgrounds in which we left our fingerprints and footprints on, literally. 
I loved every moment of it. I thank you so much for being my companion through every single memory we had in school and in band.
Thank you, Edeline. And happy 14th birthday.

To Ezzul;
Joining CMB opens up to new experiences and higher expectations. I feel honoured to be a member of the clarinet section. I will never stop the music from flowing. I will try my best to be as good as you one day too. I won't let the section die.
Through all the laughter, tears, the swollen right thumb, the bleeding reeds, the ulcers and bumps on the bottom lip, I am grateful to be your friend.
Indelible imprints don't get forgotten as they stay with you forever.
Happy 15th birthday, Ezzul.

I swear I have nothing to post today.
I'm learning how to knit and I'm learning it super fast too. I have yet to get my Believers Never Die album. I want to post my stories up on my deviantart but I'm just so scared it won't make it. I feel like munching on something, but I don't kow what. I'm missing someone so terribly, I swear my heart has a hole right now.

Where the fuck are you?

mrye; mi novio es missing, muy buen.
P.S. tomorrow marks one month of M.I.A.
P.P.S. Even your best friend stopped calling, perra.

Hello all,

Apparently blogdrive has erased everything I typed.

I built a Fantasy Villa in 10 hours. I somehow did a choreography of The Ballad of Big Poppa and Diamond Girl by Cobra Starship with Afiz. I listened to the tracks on my mp3 by Refused and now know how to differentiate the songs from each other. I watch New Moon with my sister on Sunday and got cinones seating beside me scared cos I looked like a vampire what with my pale skin and shits.

I wish we could stop time and dance on tables, not giving any sht about shts.

I love you, you arsehole.

mrye; 5 words, just 5 words.
P.S. where the fuck are you?
P.P.S. answer my fucking calls, motherfucker.

Argh !
And if your heart stops beating,
I'll be here wondering,
Did you get what you deserved,
The ending of your life,
And if you get to heaven,
My Chemical Romance's Dead!

I guess it's an eye opener. Seriously. I'm gonna try my best to make those 5 words come out of your mouth. I want it so badly. If you were to say it just once, I can die smiling. Really.

HAVE YOU HEARD THE NEWS THAT YOU'RE DEAD;
I wanted band so much. Was looking forward to it today. Then it crashed all because of stupid Amir. Sue me for writing his name, i don't give two shts. Go spam my blinking tagboard to those who actually care about that bloody kentalans, i don't give a fuck. He sucks. I wanted band so so much.

SO TIRED AND OH SO SQUEMISH;
I'm so glad I accepted Edeline's offer to join band in Primary 2. If not, I wouldn't have known what I was good at. I wouldn't have discovered my talent. That sounds a teensy bit corny but you have to admit that it's true. If I didn't join band, what would I have become?

YOU NEVER FELL IN LOVE;
Band builds discipline in yourself. Respect for those of higher ranking but of the same age/batch as you. Initiative to play out and ask questions when in doubt. Enthusiasm in learning more about your instrument. Band builds love. Love for music and the instruments, primarily the instrument you play.
I love band.

IF LOVE AIN'T JUST A JOKE;
I badly want to go for the Yuhua concert. Maybe I'll ask Afzal to come along. Haha, see if he still remember who Sufian is. Oh my god, should have given it to him, man. Could get free tickets. Right, Afzal? But Sufian was damn scary. Okay, hush. Oh, and Edeline, the Sufian at NIESB is NOT, SO NOT, the Sufian in Yuhua. Siao uh. He's not that ugly. Psh. *smiles to myself* Muy buen. Hot sial budak tu.

THEN WHY ARE WE LAUGHING;
I can't get over what happened today. It's like heaven on Earth. Except not that sweet. So sad sia. OI, SEDIH BETUL! He looks like Gabe Saporta but more hotter.
OH MY GOD, THAT ACTUALLY EXISTS!
That's it, I'm losing it.

Take me away, dear Eminem.

mrye; five words, just five words.
P.S. I miss you truckloads, mi novio. Seriously.
P.P.S. You and my Believers Never Die. *happy face*

I'm gonna make it bend and break,
Say a prayer and let the good times roll,
In case God doesn't show,
Fall Out Boy's Thnks fr th Mmrs

sweet.

ONE NIGHT, YEAH, ONE MORE TIME;
Went to school only to know that the band room will not be opening. So me and Diyanah went to buy her school books. Damn heavy, so we took the taxi. Arrived at her house, then we went on the internet; facebook. and played Sims.

WHEN I LOOK INTO THE PAST;
Now listening to The Phantom of the Opera's songs. Damn nice. You music lovers should go watch the movie. It's beautiful.

tellyhus then.

Oh, Rye, Believers Never Die. Buy. Buy.

mrye; very very soft cookies.
P.S. I think I can't go for AUS trip. Doe not enough. Sheatzzxzxxzcxxzxcxz.