I’m a preacher sweating in the pews
For the salvation I’m bringing you
I’m a salesman, I’m selling you hooks and plans
And myself making demands
Fame < Infamy by Fall Out Boy

I never said Fall Out Boy wasn't a good band. I merely said that Fall Out Boy does not know how to choose singles. There are better songs in their albums compared to the singles which are the only songs that imbeciles sing to. Which is dumb. This song is so meaningful. Pete Wentz is an awesome lyricist. But I still think Ryan Ross does a better job than you.

SUCH WIT WITHOUT CONSCIENCE EQUIPPED;
Pardon me if any of these lyrics are wrong, I'm trying my best to decipher. I love the drums in the song. So danceable and headbanging material ish at the same time. Sad thing they broke up really. Scenes And SIrens would have became amazingly phwoarvalue if they did not die. Sad thing, really.

WHEN I'M HOME ALONE I JUST CAN'T STOP MYSELF;
Today was so weird. I went to school feeling so frigging numb I didn't smile until Angel said hi to me. Expressionless. I did not find out why I was so.. down. Rosma cheered me up in Physics. I swear Mr Tan is  good teacher. He answers my questions; like really answers it and not give additional information. Rocks lah eh. After school, I went IMM with Ifah, Khai and Diyanah to eat. I bought my little brother's wraps at Long John's then went back home.

THE KID WAS ALRIGHT BUT IT WENT TO HIS HEAD;
Maybe I was down because my dad is at Boyan, Indonesia and I miss him truckloads. Have been talking to him a lot these days, as to say before his trip. I really miss him. I'm sure he misses me too. :(((((((((((( I want my faaaather.

Oh, and I want another outing. Like during the very long holidays. One with CSS people, one with Rye and Afiz, one with the 6 of us, LSPS, one with Jie Ying.

Off to spam all of you guys' facebook pages with marvelous and awesome quotes I can think off. Meet you there! (:

Nur Mariyah; all of you need not know what mrye stands for.
P.S. I have a MoshiMonster and it's so cute and adorkable. It's like neopets except that it's more grrrrr-er and cool. My username is mryevalkyrie. Go play! It's damn fun.

I'm just staring at those questions. My eyes travel fom left to right registering the words in my mind and mouthing them out as I read. My heartbeat raced even faster as my mind got blocked as if cordoned by fear and anxiety. Questions with no answers. No true answers.

I'm trying to get those answers out. I am trying.

This time, I can't get any help, guidance or whatever that I had had. This is the time to show myself. The moment to show everyone I have what it takes to take over. The chance to redeem myself.

The one interview that will determine my stand for the next year.
-mrye

Sorry, that was shtty writing I guess. No, not in my book. Today was so fun. Went out with Rainal and Afiz and crapped a lot. Lol, told them about Illuminati. Afiz went super paranoid and asked me about Green Day. Which I did not know. Rye's hair is black again. I wished he'll stop dying it. His original hair colour is red; his mom is Eurasian. Lucky idiot.

Unlike other days, I shall elaborate on this one as now I am super free and I owe a dozen million updates. We couldn't decide on where to eat so we didn't eat. Luckily Afiz had biscuits so we ate that. We talked about the Illuminati, My Chemical Romance, Pete Wentz being an idiot, Muse concert, the devo death of The Rev :( , CMB and some other stuffs. Lol, I missed both of them so much. Dang it. I missed laughing as hard as today and tearing up. Omgee, my descriptions are haywire sorry. I just miss those times when we did not have a single care of the world.

Now it's completely different cos I'm missing out on everything and everything has to stop to be explained to be before someone can press the play button back again. It really is sucky.

Kamu berdua seperti burung-burung camarku yang sering menggalakkanku untuk terbang bebas. Aku amat bertuah kerana mempunyai kawan yang bolehku meluahkan perasaan dalamku. Bukannya kamu berdua sahaja yang aku percayai namun kamu berdua sahajalah yang jarang ku lihat sejak kebelakangan ini. Aku benar-benar merindui kamu berdua.

What am I? A Malay writer now? I'm just practicing now. Taking Os this year remember? Hopefully, I won't suck tomorrow and blank out.

Thank you to Rainal and Afiz for making time to hang out again. Just us three.

Guwe sayang banget sama kamu semua.

Nur Mariyah; six sense has it's price.

I'm sorry but I'll be unable to post normally; e.g. the songs in my head and inspirations and rambles; but I assure you I will one day when my workload dissipates. Weekends, I guess would be the perfect time. I rarely go online nowadays too. Even so, it'll be because of work and research and shts. I will be blogging of course. But I'm most likely writing more. I've successfully written about a quarter of my one hundred and thirty paged book. Oh, love love.

I've learnt lots of things this week. Scary things. Some of which I wished I did not know. But it's good that I did so I can actually spread the message. No, I won't say what. It really is scary. Scarier than Case 39, which I am obsessed with. Love it to bits. Go watch it or something.

The only homework I love and will only love is maths. I guess I'm retarded like that but I really like Maths. It's easier than Science. English is not needed. Malay too, duh. No inferencial stuffs. It's just numbers and mini numbers. I love Maths.

I'm blinking scared for Friday. I don't know what to say at all. I'm scared sht.

On the bright side, I can confidently say that I am PROSHTONSTICKS at numbers. And that I won't have to worry about anything other than band and school till March. No academia navaja. No outside band or anything. No nothing.

I should remember nothing is what it seems
Alesana's Obesesions Is An Ugly Word

Nur Mariyah; mrye

ANEEQA IS SO BLINKING CUTE!

Your laughter awakens me from my frightful reverie. Your smile jolts through me like pink lightning. Your eyes assures my worries of never-ending questions unanswered. You complete me so fucking well, I can never thank you enough.

Sometimes vulgarity is beautiful.

You know I love you. Xoxo.

Nur Mariyah; Valkyrie Schartz

She take my money when I'm in need
Yea she's a trifflin friend indeed
Oh she's a gold digga way over town
That digs on me
Kanye West's Gold Digger

LOL, Glee rocks sht to the max. Total phwoarvalue.

GET DOWN GIRL GO HEAD, GET DOWN;
Esplanade performance was complate emotional roller coaster ride. Now, what's up with roller coasters and my life? Blinking pharken. I'm gonna miss my seniors so badly. I'm gonna miss the feeling of having people to teach me, to point out my mstakes and to laugh at random stuffs. I'm going to have to teach people now. I'm going to have to point out other people's mistakes. Which means, I have to be like, a close to perfect musician like Ezzul. Omgee, and everyone wants me to be better than him. Whoops, not wants. Expects. Large large weight on my shoulders.

WITH A BABY LOUIS VUITTON;
I do want to be better, though. But not better than him. I just want to be a better player. One that I want to be, always wanted to be. Haha, me and Edeline had goals. Both of us wanted to be different clarinetists that are good at different stuffs. I wanted to be one that can teach and stuffs. Lol, omgee, I miss her so much. I miss the 6H band gang. Seriously. Afzal, Yi Tian, Kenneth and Edeline.

I missed 3 blinking cobracams. I feel so left out. And Nate is so darn cute. Lol; "We were really high" "not like that mom. we were on drugs." HAHAHAHAH.
No, they aren't. Obviously. Gabe is so high and hot and awesome and ohwoarvalue and cute and adorkably adorable and hot sht. Omgee.

I'm not going camp. I hope they're enjoying themselves. Well duh they are.
Haha, there's a new recruit for academia navaja. And it's a girl. We'll see what happens tomorrow eh? Hopefully, she's not a bitch or slut or... Yeah. Haha! Omgee, I need to keep quiet. Oh, let's do random quiz!

Name = Nur Mariyah
Piercings = One on each ear.
Tattoos = None.
Height = 160 cm.
Shoe Size = 9 to 10.
Hair Color = Dark brown.
Length = Close to shoulder length.
Eye Color = Dark brown
Siblings = 4.

LAST...

Movie You Rented = Meh.
Movie You Bought = Uh, Paranormal Activity.
Song You Listened To = Gold Digger sang by Glee.
Song That Was Stuck In Your Head = A Most Profound Quiet by Alesana.
CD You Bought = Um, A Fever You Can't Sweat Out. So so long ago.
CD You Listened To = Where Myth Fades to Legends.
Person You've Called = Hazwani
Person That's Called You = Ifah.
Person You've IMed = Hazwani.
Person That's IMed You = Hazwani.
TV Show You've Watched = Glee.
Person You Were Thinking Of = That new girl.

DO...

You Have A BF Or GF = No.
You Have A Crush On Someone = Gabe Saporta. I'm damn open, okay! *smiles*
You Wish You Could Live Somewhere Else = Um, everywhere the Cobra bus goes.
You Think About Suicide = When writing maybe.
You Believe In Online Dating = Omgee, blueh.
Others Find You Attractive = Idk, really.
You Want More Piercings = No, two is enough.
You Drink = Anything that's not alcohol.
You Do Drugs = Ew.
You Like Cleaning = Um, Benjamin yes.
You Like Roller Coasters = HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!
You Write In Cursive or Print = Messeh Cursive

FOR OR AGAINST...

Long Distance Relationships = Um, idk.
Using Someone = Depends.
Killing People = Against.
Teenage Smoking = Against.
Doing Drugs = Against.
Premarital Sex = Against.
Driving Drunk = Against.
Gay/Lesbian Relationships = HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA!
Pop Music = AGAINST AGAINST AGAINST FUCK AGAINST!!

FAVORITE AT THE MOMENT...

Food = Roti prata.
Song = Seduction by Alesana.
Thing To Do = Fold roses.
Thing To Talk About = Omgee, violent apples.
Sports = Um, Volleyball.
Drinks = Pepsi Twist, duh.
Clothes = Forever 21 green and black checked hoodie with big cute buttons. Total love.
Movie = Anger Management.
Band/Singer = My Chemical Romance. Stupid question really. (:
Holiday = Band break!
Cars = Lambourghini. The hot red ones.

HAVE YOU...

Ever Cried Over A Girl/Boy = Um.
Ever Been In A Fist Fight = Meh.
Ever Been Arrested= Heh?

WHAT...

Shampoo Do You Use = Orang Sunsilk.
Shoes Do You Wear = My purple Nike Air Force 1s.
Are You Scared Of = Needles and God.

NUMBER...

Of feet/inches your closet is wide = Um, about 50 cm I think. Idk.
Quantity of space your clothes fill in your closet = 1 whole.
Of Times I Have Been In Love = One, with my Benjamin. HAHA!
Of Times I Have Had My Heart Broken = Meh.
Of Hearts I Have Broken = Idk.
Of Continents I Have Lived In = One.
Of Drugs Taken Illegally = Ew.
Of People I Would Classify As True, Could Trust With My Life Type Friends = I'm too lazy to count. *smiles*
Of People I Consider My Enemies = Any girl that tried to get in Academia Navaja. HAHA!
Of Times My Name Has Appeared In The Newspaper = Meh. Meh. Meh.
Of Scars On My Body = I'm sooo lazy.
Of Things In My Past That I Regret = Mostly about band.

FAVORITE...

Scent = Silkygirl's Joyful perfume.
Word = Innocence.
Nickname = mrye. mrye. mrye. mrye. mrye. mrye. mrye. mrye. mrye.
Guy Name = Gabriel.
Girl Name = Valkyrie.
Eye Color = Like Spencer Smith's eyes. Gorgey.
Flower = Roses.
Piercing = Meh.
Actors = Milo Ventimiglia.
Actresses = Um. Victoria Asher, IDK!!! hahahhaa.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...

Pretty = No.
Funny = Bit.
Friendly = Yes.
Amusing = Um.
Ugly = Not so extreme.
Lovable = I guess.
Pessimistic = In the mornings.
Optimistic = Band days.
Caring = Yeah.

AIGHT, DONE! I'm gonna copy this to dA.
http://mryah.deviantart.com
Check it out.

Nur Mariyah; mrye

My life is such a rollercoaster.
Have you heard/seen that before? I know it sounds corny and corniness kills, mine is like that. Now. Why? It just is. Now.

Your radiance is killing me,
My eyes to be exact,
Everytime it'll be you I see,
You are a big impact;
Why can't you just be smart,
And know that I just can't,
Define love as if I'm smart,
I wish to but I can't;
My darling, I really love you,
And love is something I can't,
define but I just wish to say,
Till death do us apart;

My love, stop the whining,
Don't stop the love,
Stop the cravings;
Just don't stop my heart;
That's only beating when you're alive;

I wish that you'll start seeing,
That you'll start believing;
In me;

I wish that you'll see the meaning,
From what I have been saying,
To you;

I love you,
But love is just something I can't.
Define Love If You're So Smart by Karim Ropharro

I love this song. One day, I'll see this guy performing alongside Patrick Stump. Heh, K is brilliant. He total phwoarvalue. Saaaaaaaayang kau!

Band was brilliant. Lessons have been a drag all this while. I already have an assignment for Combined Humanities; Social Studies. I'll be doing it with Priyaa. I'm going to do my research today. After I eat the ice cream. It's finishing. *pouts*
Band has been a sucker these days really. I can't play that loud anymore as they only have the V12 reeds which are super hard. Hate it to the maximum. And my bottom lip hurts a lot. And I have a pimple on my chin. Gah.

I miss you so badly. All of you. Gah.

My phone is a nuisance nowadays. Jeremy could not send me Celebrate just now. Devastation. *pouts* Just a few more months to go. I have to start saving. Okay, no more recess for me. Maybe just Loh Mah Kai. And orange juice. Lol. I'm such an awful person.

I need a phone that makes me smile everytime I look at it. I still do when I look at my current one. My green phone was love at first sight. Any others?

No, I'm not dumping Benjamin for Josef. Fuck you Josef. I love Benjaming. *does the Ryland Blackinton pose*

Whoops, I forgot that I owed you guys a Ryland Blackinton pose. Here it is:

mrye; Valkyrie Schwarc.
P.S. Mwah!

I toss and turn and lie awake,
it torments me, I must know why
It just seems too easy
what is beyond that door?
As I take a step back I wonder,
could I go on and turn the key?
Alesana's Obsession Is Such An Ugly Word

I love this song. Screamo. Love. Alesana is love. Drums are super perfect. Bass is blinking strong. Rhythm and lead guitars are awesomeness. Go listen to it. But don't if you hate screamo. Lyrics are full with meaning. Blinking love, I swear.

I CAN ALMOST HEAR ANGUISHED CRIES AS THEY SUFFER ;
School has been brilliant except for days where there is Chemistry. Not that I hate the subject. I adore Chemistry. The teacher sucked bull crap on sticks. Malay has always been a pleasure and a love. Geoggers are super fun. I totally understand every single thing teach says. Omg, sorry American Idol is such a brilliant entertaiment; I'm laughing my ass off. Lol lol lol lol lol lmao roflolmao.

LOOK AWAY, TURN AWAY ;
Next, Biology is aight. Erm, Physics is mmkay. Maths is ruddy brilliant. I love maths oh god, I love mathematics. Maths is love, love, amo, cinta giler babi. Ms Shyam is a brilliant teacher. God, Maths rocks. *eyes widen like they do when I'm friggin exceited and happy* English is suhweetness; total phwoarvalue.

DESIRE IS NOW THE ONE IN CONTROL ;
Alesana is releasing their new album this year. Awesome. My Chemical Romance in April too; love love love. Cobra Starship has a surprise for the fans; *screams hysterically*. Panic! At The Disco's new found record!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't hate me for spamming exclamation marks. I hate doing that too but it's needed. Heh.

RAINAL GOT TICKETS FOR THE KILLERS AND MUSE AND BOYS LIKE GIRLS!
It was super nuts. He called in the morning and I wanted to scream but couldn't. Speechless sht. He bought 7 for each, for Academia Navaja. I want to go to The Killers's but I would need to ask my mom and the answer is most prolly gon be a no, like My Chemical Romance. Dang it. They are at Green Day's now. *pouts* I'm not there. I'm stuck doing maths and Melayu. Fuck you lah idiots. Haha, no, I love you. Mwah. *thumbs up*

IF I DON'T KNOW WHAT LIES BEYOND ;
American Idol is so funneh. Go watch the new season. You'll sht bricks, it's total mindfuck. *smiles wide wide* I keep creating new phrases, I should stop.

I love love love love love love love love love all of you. *throws kisses*

Nur Mariyah; mrye.
P.S. aku sayang Gabe Saporta banyak banyak. Band tomorrow!
P.P.S. Auditions for the sec1s were brilliant. I see sparks, sparks! Boomzness.
P.P.P.S. God, I'm so blinking happy. Thank you for making my day people. Te amo!

When they encourage all complete cooperation,
Send you roses when they think you need to smile,
I can't control myself because I don't know how,
And they love me for it honestly,
I'll be here for a while,
My Chemical Romance's Blood

This is the Hidden Track in The Black Parade. It's really hilarious and there's a bit of Frank's vocals. Lol, go check it out.

GALLONS OF THE STUFFS ;
I'll start the post from the 9th of January, the birth of two amazing people namely Marion Ngo and Joey Tay. The day started with the open house in which I had to wake up as if there was school on that day. Except that I woke up willingly because I knew that there isn't going to be any lessons, just band. Band, band, band. After our performance, which I played pretty badly in, we had an hour of rest as the sec 4s had a Physics Mastery Test. Diyanah and Wee Hao read my book. En Yong was damn random. Lol.
Fast forward to band. Total awesomeness. I can tongue now!
Fast forward to Aljunied. We met this bimbotic rich and good clarinetist at Music Gear. She went nutcrack over the Josef. I did too. Meh. That instrument is really beautiful. No, I got my boyfriend ready; cannot two-time. Lol. I still do love Benjamin, my clarinet. I'll stick to it.
Fast forward to Joey's parteh. It was damn fun. Joey's parents are super nice, I swear. They were so sweet. Me, Diyanah, Sheng Wu, Jun Wei, Andrew and Wee Hao played ping pong. No wait, it was more like badminton. The ball kept on flying above our heads. Wee Hao and Jun Wei damn smart. Lol. All of us laughed like some giler babees.

CELEBRATED MAN AMONGST THE GURNEY ;
After which, Diyanah and I went back home but we did not know what bus to take. So we asked this couple walking on the pavement. They were so nice, I swear. Asked if we were okay and all. Lol ness.
I went back home. Then Diyanah conferenced with Marion and me on the phone and we sang her her birthday song. Talked about school and stuffs. We planned to go out together one day, just for fun. Can't wait! Then I bathed and slept.

FIX ME PROPER WITH A BIT OF LUCK ;
Today, I had religious class. It was such a mess. The system at the mosque is really really really bad. Luckily, Sarah is in the same class as me. Her dad persuaded the people to let her in 3B. Tadah! Done.

THE DOCTORS AND THE NURSES THEY ADORE ME SO ;
At 1:30, I went out of home wearing my new found favourite green and black hoodie and black jeans. Met a new friend called Chao Xiang, Wee Hao's friend. Went to the SparksWinds concert at Esplanade. It was okay. Pretty boring at some point. But at the encore, Danish and a few others were dancing at the front while the people played. Lol, so cute. Danish is my junior from primary school btw. It was damn cool. then went back home to do biology homework. Which I have finished doing. That and the program booklet. Hopefully, I just need to edit a few stuffs.

COS I'M SUCH AN AWFUL FUCK ;
My homework is done done done. Except Maths which I will ask about. Physics too. I have everything tomorrow, so I'll just ask whatever. Oh and hopefully, Shasha will choose me to help audition the sec 1s. I don't even know who she's choosing. Fingers crossed people.

I GAVE YOU BLOOD, BLOOD ;
Teen Cribs is dopeness. And I need to sleep. And write about rainbows. Don't ask.

I love you! Meh.

Nur Mariyah; valkyrie shwarc.

They're selling postcards of the hanging,
While they're painting the passports brown,
And the beauty parlor's filled with sailors;
The circus is in town,
Oh now look, here comes the blind commissioner;
Well they got him in a trance,
One hand is tied to the tight-rope walker;
The other's in his pants,
My Chemical Romance's Cover of Desolation Row written by Bob Dylan

Jon Walker's cat's name is Dylan, named after Bob Dylan. This song is genius. I'll post Slow Motion's one day. That song is brilliant too.

AS LADY AND I LOOK OUT TONIGHT FOR DESOLATION ROW ;
I have an itch on my left hand near my elbows. It hurts. I'm currently awaiting a reply from my instructor about the design for the front cover. I sent in Karim's copy. Karim edited it and it looks much much neater than the supposed 1st draft. Thanks man. *throws kisses*

OH BETTE DAVIS STYLE ;
I have to go and work now. Will blog tomorrow hopefully. Have got a couple of stuffs to post and updae you guys on. About me obviously. Lol, duh.

Tomorrow is open house. Hopefully, my top G can come out tomorrow. Ameen.

Nur Mariyah; mrye.